‘Extreme behavior in Aspen,’ Feb. 3, 2003
“We are turning into a nation of whimpering slaves to Fear — fear of war, fear of poverty, fear of random terrorism, fear of getting down-sized or fired because of the plunging economy, fear of getting evicted for bad debts, or suddenly getting locked up in a military detention camp on vague charges of being a Terrorist sympathizer.”
We are motivated, if not controlled and or oppressed by fear. The things I fear most in this lifetime, are none of those listed by Hunter, rather internal and existential self-destructive fears. Our weakest times come when we give in, and begin to doubt a lifetime of choices we may or may not have made. A self-confident or proud man is as weak as his final hour. In those moments, we embody the spirit of the critic, of the mainstream fascist that we spent a lifetime condemning and living in direct opposition to. I fear that I will find my final hour intermittently over the course of my life. I deal with many very real and deterministic truths regarding my physical self; my life is a constant flux, a battle between mental and emotional strength, spirituality, and belief- and a self destructive, honest, awareness of my physical attributes.
For a while I have been open to the idea of getting a tattoo. Only lately have I grasped some idea’s worth wrapping my head around.
My recent gravitation towards Hunter isn’t juevinle, or because of recent exposure, rather admiration- and respect, and ability to recognize much of my-self in his life, and work. I will make the symbol my own- unique of course, but I strongly identify with what the Gonzo Fist represents.